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2009-11-28T21:15:00.007-05:00

I've watched New moon. I'm.. In my fantasy now. Falling in love with Twilight saga. Really needa fork out some time in reading My saga collection.

My facourite song in new moon. Waiting for eclipse.

Here are some of our Honeymoon Pictures taken at Taiwan.
Really.. Enjoyed our trip. Different place, different culture.

*Let the pictures do the talking!

2009-10-31T10:06:00.007-04:00

My son is giving that bur look.

On the way to school

Naked boy

oops.

Roar!

Baby & Daddy looking good wearing same Polo

3 of Us wearing the same

Smile, u're on candid camera!

Lousy quality, due to my secondary camera

Enjoying his mango pudding.

Kuishinbo. Those big long legged crabs

Pure rock boy.

It's been a month plus.

Oops. Here are the pics for Oct. Really enjoying every moment with my love ones.

Currently, working at eye centre. Really stress free after knock off.

The feeling is so different from NUH, University Surgical Centre.

I don't have to think if I've missed out anything,

did I book appointment for pt,

did I paste the sticky label for review and all?

Really a big relieved.

Did not regret leaving hell, with sucky pay.

Anyway,

Staffs at SNEC were nice. I'm happy too.

Right now, drinking with my hubby.

Tmr we're gg to the restuarant,

where we held our wedding dinner.

For DIM SUM.

It's been a long time! Yippe.

Oh yeah,

My hubby and I quited smoking!

I'm glad. Even though' we don't smoke

infront of Jayden, somehow we feel that,

We're being unfair to him. Sniffing our smelly

odour. Hubby's determination is much

better den mine.

I'm gonna knock out. Update soon!

2009-09-13T02:09:00.005-04:00

Pictures taken on the month of August. My happy moments.

Ben & I are planning for Taiwan trip on Nov. I'm doing research now. Jayden's napping.

Nobody to disturb.

I'm bored to death. I've done everything, changing of bedsheets, washing clothes, sweep & mopping of floor, trimmed Jayden's hair.

Met my granny, aunt and mummy in the morning. Had breakfast, they said, Jayden isn't picky with food. Dat's good.

He ate 2 bowls of rice for dinner ydae. & drank a bottle of milk be4 sleep. I'm wondering why such appetite he have got all sudden.

Jayden is a little fatter now, after he'd recovered. I'm glad.

*I MISS MY HUBBY..*

2009-09-01T09:28:00.002-04:00

I cried easily. I cried with Jayden when my hubby left us. I'm ultimately sad this time. I dun know why. Jayden & I fall sick, Jayden had wheezing sound, til I gave him Salbutamol. I almost freak out and cry. I don't want my son to have asthma, like I do. I'm down with bad flu. I need my husband..

2009-08-22T11:42:00.002-04:00

Went to Sakura @ Clementi Woods Park for Lunch today. Worst and horrible food I had for the first time. The food was cold, tasteless and yucky. Not fresh. The bamboo clam was stale. Yucks. It tasted like a puppy didn't bathe for a long time. Can u imagine dat taste staying in ur mouth, no matter unteem times u glurp mouthful of water the strench is still there.

Fucking gross.

My first and my last time.

I vomitted when I reach home. After dinner I puked. Spoiler.

We dropped by Ave 2, to order my hub's contact lens. & he thought of getting a spec. Haha. He looked. Decent I must say. I ordered my coloured Lens too.

Oh my, I'm having Nausea thinking bout' the food I had today. *slaps forehead*

After Jayden recovered from his fever, cough & flu, he started to eat alot. Dat's a good sign. I dun wan my baby boy to look ill. ;/ My husband and I thought of getting another baby to accompany Jayden. But sumhw, I'm scared of the Pain, the bloated me and the sleepless nights. Quite scary and tiring you know.

Next Sunday, my husband will be away. He'll be back only September, will missed his birthday. But I'll get him a gift.

Good night, peeps.

2009-08-21T10:56:00.004-04:00

I'M JUST TOO TIRED TO BLOG. BUT I KNOW, MY MONEY IS ROLLING IN. DAT'S WHY I AM VERY HAPPY.

2009-08-13T02:48:00.002-04:00

I'm watching Jum Loei Rak. It's a Thai Lakorn. Super nice. Aff is so pretty, Aum is so charming. My mum intro-ed me this Lakorn.

My husband said I'm sticking to the lappy 24/7 cos of this drama.

Yesterday, went for my Practice and evaluation at BBDC. I passed my evalution ok. 99% With that thick skin of mine. kaka.

2009-08-09T10:12:00.002-04:00

At East Coast Park.

3 of us wearing shades.

Mummy & Baby.

So fake my husband's smile!

Zhen Lao Shi shaking jay's hand.

Jayden at sch. National Day's celebration.

2009-08-04T00:14:00.004-04:00

2009-08-03T01:05:00.006-04:00

Miss being a student, miss all my friends.

I wanna retake our wedding album.

Jayden trying to be funny.

He's drinking from a tea bag. Haha

New set of Thomas again.

Day or Night, Jayden will still love Thomas.

Today, my husband's off day. I bathed Jayden, packed his stuffs and send him to school. My husband and I went to walk around clementi central. Den I decided to make herbal tea for them, cos the weather is humid.

Hubby : "Okay, den we shall go to the chinese medical hall." Me :" But baby I dunno how to make the herbal tea?? I'll call my mummy to seek advice." Hubby said :" Baby, dun waste time, u cook barley add in some rock sugar."

KNS lor, my husband, never even let me try to make the tea. Anyway, even if I brew the tea, i won't drink it myself. So I won't know hw my tea is gonna taste like! My Jayden boy is getting more talkative. *Headache*

Last week, I fed him his medication, he was mumbling to himself, : "mama.. !@#$@#$$%^& ( Baby Language) eat. don't want." *Jayden points at the medication*

Agaration, I think I know what he's mumbling!!! I guess he said : "mama force me to eat the medicine, but I dun want, Cos it doesn't taste good."

He's very.... lol. Sometimes, he just make me feel.. angry and happy at the same time. Same goes to my husband!! Now I need to do some cleaning, cos my husband is busy with his tiles. SO... How can I not do sum hsework.????

2009-07-29T01:53:00.008-04:00

I must admit, I looked ghostly here.

My Little Sleepyhead.

Where's your F1?

Jayden & Uncle's love.

I think they both saw ghost. haha, Jayden!

He's always calling for his uncle.

Today, I went to bbdc, Decided to join sch. Topped up 2oo into my account, now let with 1oo. ;/ Currently, staying at my new home. It's been 2 weeks. Everything's gg smoothly. Everyday, I will bring Jayden to sch.

Jayden is starting to adapt. Though sometimes he's reluctant to go sch. He got lots of friends there, yesterday he ate pancakes for tea time, what's for teatime today?

Gonna fetch him at 5 today. Enjoy the mv, I liked Lydia's voice. She's good.

2009-07-18T11:53:00.002-04:00

2009-07-14T10:01:00.003-04:00

I miss my mum so much.

Goodbye NUH, goodbye USC.

I really had a great time at USC, I will miss all the girls there. I'm sad to leave all of you, but for my better paym finally I've decided to leave. I tendered my resignation letter 2 weeks ago. Tiffany, Jean, Nicole, Meiyan, Aisha, Minmin, Alice, Mee yoke, Lucy, Amy, Amnah, Zarina, May, Banling, Susan, Agnes, Chia, I love you all. You all gave me happiness and smiles through out my 5 months plus. All the good times and bad times.

Jean, is like my left hand. Without her during work, equals to paralysed Lia at work.

Tiffany is my right hand. I can't work without either of them. Cos they had brought colours to my life.

Meiyan, is one of my legs. Very cheerful and chirpy. Indeed a very nice girl.

Nicole too. Aunty nicole is the first impression of her. With her ugly looking aunty hairnet & ribbon. Aiyo! Terrible. I'm glad dat I've changed your hairstyle at work, u've got nice french twist everyday.

Wihout them, my life is so boring.

Susan, the banana lady. Always seeing her with her banana dancing around.

Alice, we had a hard time at treatment rm tgt. We've gone through the most exciting part of nursing.

Minmin, I love scaring you with the cyst after excision. She'll freak out.

Meeyoke, We always enojoyed talking about our sons.

May, I'll remember our seaweed song.

Zarina, thanks for coaching me. I really appreciate that.

Chia, Agnes, Banling, Amnah, Lucy, Amy, without all of you, there won't be USC.

Thanks alot babes. I love you guys!

2009-07-11T09:24:00.005-04:00

I love my husband

Jayden's favourite, Thomas. Whoo whoo*

Jayden Looking Sleepy

You're on candid camera.

Naughty Looking Jayden. New haircut by me!

Finally, got Jayden's hair cut. His new hair stylist is his mummy, me. Haha. Today, early morning, we hurry hurry left home and make our way to our new home. We bought broom, mop, and etc. Sweep and mopped the floor.

Cleaned the hse before they deliver our furnitures. I really like my lil' cosy home. Easy to clean up. I got my super duper mighty microwave oven. It's not only for heating up food, but also bake, steam, roast and grill.

It's really cool. I'll try baking cake, pizza..... Tomorrow is Jayden's bdae. We got him a photo cake dis time. A pic of my mil and him. Will take pics later. My son is v grumphy now, cos he's very sleepy. But we have to wait til all is home.

Tomorrow we're going v.hive to haunt for computer table and shoe cabinet. Til' then.. I'll rot on my bed for now.

2009-06-16T09:55:00.003-04:00

Baby,

send me this song. He said it resembles us. 2 more days. fucking 2 more days til i can see you my love. I'm so lonely without you. 1 more month! Til we move out, dun have to see that bitch's face. Seriously, i can't wait.. 1 more week til pay day.

Soulja Boy Kiss Me Through The Phone

2009-06-08T10:26:00.008-04:00

Awaiting for barney. At little big club's concert.

My dearest baby..

He needs a haircut

Busy with M & M's & Ice lemon tea.

Yet to complete.. My lil bathroom.

Area for my washing machine

My black and white concept, kitchen.

My cozy living room.

I didn't know I'm dat capable. I brought Jayden to lil big club concert taking train and bus ok! My first time, not cabbing. Even i took the bus to my mum's place.

2009-05-11T09:57:00.003-04:00

We will be moving out soon, hope mummy and daddy will be stay happy.

My SIL is such a pity. *shakes head* My husband went outstation. It's been 2 weeks plus. I'm so bored.! Til' then, I'll blog once my husband is back. I'm so occupied with my work and home renovation.

2009-05-04T08:39:00.004-04:00

My handpghone is beyond repair! How sad. My husband bought me nokia 5800 to compansate. We've been so busy over the week end. I did lots of research for our home. Plus, Minus, we need to spend $16k for renovation. We will limit ourselves with 5k for furniture. Everything in this world is $. No money, no talk. Lucky, my baby got savings. I contribute damn little compared to my dear husband. Tmr, we're gonna roam around to look for Sanitary items.

I need to cut down on my shopping. So I will be saving saving and saving like aunty. Sigh. Money money.. Prolly I will job hop to Private agency. $ will rise rise rise. By then I will be happy! My husband gg outstation next thurs. Sob.

I hope H1N1 will go away. *shoo. Very troublesome. Need to don on PPE, n95 mask. The mask is so tight, it leaves markings on my face after wearing it. My face itch. yuck. I really hate it. It's so dumb..

2009-04-27T07:57:00.007-04:00

Acting nerd here.

I didn't even know my dress is dat short.

My v v bloated tummy b4 AV, my preceptor & Tiff.

These few days, I'm running out of luck. My Phone's LCD cracked. Really heartbroken. My husband said he'll get me a new phone. But I really liked my phone. Went to SE to get it service. Quotation price $250. I rather get my phone fixed.

I'm really happy work. Had lots of fun. I'm really touched. Lena, bought a loaf of butter scrotch bread for me, developed our pictures and gave me a friendship card holder. So sweet of her. Thanks alot. Everyone of us in USC have facebook. Alamak. They can multi task, work and play Restuarant City at the same time. haha.

I'm so so so tired man. Jayden's beside me, singing Doraemon's song.

2009-04-15T10:37:00.002-04:00

I would say today isn't my day. I felt so emotional over life and death. Today was CA counselling. So I got a few patients who are positive in Breast Cancer.

It's really, a heartbreaker thing to follow up cases like that. She's postive, & the main prob is, she might be pregnant. We all know that Chemotheraphy drugs are very toxic. So if she's pregnant, advisable to terminate her pregnancy. Sigh. They were planning for a child, and dis saddening reality she is gonna face. She was living in denial initially, but later part of the day, weeping away. Her husband, I can see the pain he felt for his wife.

2nd case, A 25 yr old post natal Indonesian lady, after delievered her son for 2 weeks, she realised there's a lump over at her breast. So we sent her for U/S & did core biopsy for her, she's a positive. Like what the hell is happening to us women, I felt the pain. The pain that women are gg through.

Morning was shit, so forget bout it.

After lunch, heavy clinic, first visits, so send many of them for U/S and Mammogram. First few, result : Present of Malignancy. So did Core biopsy, cried. 1, too painful. 2, fearful that it might be cancer. After a whole long day of running clinic, last patient to do Core bx, she was too frightened. She hyperventilate & had seizure for >5 secs. Her pale looking face scared me, I quickly ran to grab the nasal prongs and non debreatheable mask. Sigh. Now u know why I say its so not my day!!!!

2009-04-09T22:31:00.003-04:00

Dis is taken when we're on the way to Suntec, I bought Jayden a BUILD A BEAR, puppy. It's name Marley, birthday : 05th April 09'. Got birthcert for the puppy okay! We were so dumb, we bought things from the supermart, but we forgot to bring it home. There goes Jayden's Barney mug.

It's been two weeks since my husband's existance again. He's been away for long miserable 3 weeks. When Jayden & I fetch him from the airport, the moment I saw him, I felt kinda heartached. He lost weight. Everyday maggie maggie just to save $ for our renovation. Country X expenses are high. 1 Mac meal cost 20 bucks. I know he wants to save for our new home, but dat's not the way..

$$ rolling in, I can't believe it. I spent $15 for the whole week! Dats a good start for me. Meaning, I'm starting to save.

July, July, I can't wait..! Zaza a thai girl's voice so nice.

Good Friday, one of the S.C invited us, USC girls & some other ppl over his place, rooftop to BBQ. I'm still pondering if I should go have fun with my friends / acc my husband & son. It's so far, baby doesn't wanna go with me. He said he'll feel odd, all the Doctors and nurses yakking away. True, I dun wanna make him feel left out.

AH HAH!!! I saw K.C yesterday!!!! He wenta NUH, he got sore eyes, my goodness, his eyes swell like fuck. & I miss this friend so much! We only manage to catch up only 5 mins. After dat, when i went back to work, he msged me, sorry can't really spend time with you today... you take care.. send my regards to your husband. " I hope you well, K.C I miss you dis bro always.

2009-03-29T01:47:00.002-04:00

This song, is from Oum Rak a thai lakorn. One of my fav. I still can't find anywhere that sells Lakorn with English subtitle. Dat's frustrating. Thai lakorn is really nice. My mum watches lakorn too. I'm gonna watch twilight now. see ya. Update nx week or so.

2009-03-14T11:50:00.003-04:00

I've put up dis song, cos it reminds me of my husband. He sung dis, on our wedding day for me. Although, I dun really fancy chinese songs. But as along as he sings it for me, it'll be nice. Day 1 without him. Really damn bored at home.

MC on fri, i didn't take MC for my hsuband okay! I got diarrhoea and fever. This dis morning still running to the toilet. Stupid K.F.C, after I had my chicken, I vomitted. Den in the night fever comes. Damn sickening..

So yesterday morning, I was quite lethargic. ;/ Legs wobbly. Called up, my preceptor & sister. Sister said :" Rest well today, see you on Monday." I was worried sick dat I'll get blacklisted. Cos I'm still under probation. But preceptor told me, who says those under probation can't fall sick? We all are human, so dun worry bout dat.

I just chatted with my husband, he caught a flu. Cos Germany is v cold now. Yesterday, when we were at the airport, I gonna break down. Stupid husband asked me, :" why are ur eyes watery? You gonna cry??" I just turned away, controlled my tears. I just dun know why dis time, when he's leaving me, I felt as though he'll not come home. The whole afternoon, Jayden & I sat infront of the comp, while hoping to chat with my husband, I did a video for him. Hope he'll like it.

Waiting for him to be back from buying his stuffs. My eyes are so tired. But still I'll wait for him. I miss you baby, really miss you badly. We've been together for 1028 days and counting. I love you.

2009-03-11T10:07:00.002-04:00

I hope Friday won't come. I hope I can fake sick on Friday, at least..

I can spend my 1 day with you before you leave me and Jayden. You know, hw much I depend on you now. It's been yonks since you had your last BOSS duty, today you had it.

Must they put you on duty when 13 is nearing. I'm really feeling lousy, really lousy without you.

You're my smiles, u're my living punching bag to rant at when I dun feel good at work.

You drove me to work, picked me up after my late meeting.

How can I live without you. I really feel like crying. U're not there for my birthday. Tears formed, you know I won't cry with you around.

I can only weep silently. Cos I hate the feeling of you leaving me.

I know it's only a month, but it seems forever to me. I'm so scared you'll never return, you'll find a new girl aboard.

I want you by my side.

2009-02-27T17:57:00.009-05:00

We will find time time, bring Jayden to Palawan
Beach again.

Dining at Siam Kitchen.

I just miss yoy, Ayu. Our crazy days at sch.

After alighting the bus, Huiling, Tiffany & I saw
RAINBOW! Tiffany & Huiling, are the ones that
I can really talk to..

My silly husband drew dis.

Jayden trying to do pull up. He did it, for a min.

Looking blur. Just woke up.

He dug his nose, wan some nose shit?

Miss those times, when we played knuckle
duster. & the bruise i had.

My V'day gift. With a super big diamond ring.

Those days..

Bruise I had after blood taking.

I love Mac Donald.

At Vivo.

Basketballer.

His super stylo milo hair. Good morning.

2009-02-22T09:16:00.002-05:00

I've got many many pictures to load, wait til I've got time I'll load it all at a go.. I found a thai song, nice nice. But I dunno wtf is she singing. As long as it's nice, I'll listen. I've started on my vegetarian diet. I really sayang my lil' baby alot. He's catching the words I'm saying.

I wanna watch Thai drama, where can I buy it? I hate watching online, so laggy. Unlike my mum always chasing her thai drama online. I really hate dat.

I ordered my Juicy Couture watch & Lacoste sling. Will arrive next month. Damn slow la, the Taiwan spree I ordered from one of my friend. My husband kept bugging me bout his shirt & jeans I've ordered for Valentine's gift. Til now, he haven't receive it yet.

Poor Husband. I've received a bouquet of flowers with a super big ring, can be my bangle. PLUS SIZE DIAMOND RING. My silly husband. We quarrelled on V'day know. It really suck. Til a guy came knocking on my door, I was browsing thru the web, thinking wtf is my husband. So I opened the door. There.. The flowers, made me smile. I love you.

2009-02-19T08:24:00.002-05:00

Today, it's really an eye opener for me. I finally worked with my SC whom I really have to be his room girl in the clinic. It's my first time assisting my SC in the day operation. 2 Surgeries, one after another, hands were trembling. The nx surgery, my preceptor really want me to get involve, instead of her helping me. I'm really thankful to have her coaching me.

I always thinking, preceptors confirm damn fierce, will bully us like mad. *phew* She thought me alot. In life, walking ahead you have to look out of holes on the road, & look behind if there's anyone biting ur backside. Dun be afraid if you think you're right.

She said, I'll have good future in USC. I hope so, but still there's a long way to go. Sis Penny, likes us to upgrade, so my preceptor said " give urself 1-2 years, I'm sure you can do it."

Today, I really see dat actually in the clinic, there's so many politics. Really makes me fearful of my working enviroment. I just hope, I can focus on what I wanna do & succeed.

2009-02-17T08:49:00.002-05:00

Information overload, I've got nice colleagues, very cold air conditoned workin enviroment, nice surgeons & a good sister. I dun have work on both saturday & sunday. cool right. I'm multi tasking right now. So pardon me for not typing properly. everday, my mind is kinda tired. cos need to know alo of things running a room with my specific senior consultant. kinda pressurized when senior consultant is being mentioned. my first dat working with one. v nice guy. i'm slpy. will update again

2009-02-14T00:36:00.002-05:00

Here are the pics for graduation.

Ayu's & my legs. Who took dis??

Oh, my dearest Deline..!

Bad Camera.

Look at my kissing partner, her lips.

Picture too small. Deborah & Sexy Jasvin.

My bestmate in attachment ok!

2009-02-06T08:49:00.003-05:00

My Baby boy running around Jurong Point.
Finally, he's willing to sit on his carseat.

Looking so sleepy, with his Thai CNY outfit.

He in his traditional costume.

So so so bored right now, my husband's making baby Jayden to slp. I'm so happy, today's Friday. Sat, sun & monday my husband will be with me.

Monday, we are gg to NUH tgt, Jayden will be staying at home with my MIL. Might be gg swimming on Monday, having steamboat for dinner. It's been a long time since my MIL take off to accompany us.

Hehe, Dat Johnny K.C called me. As usual, he called :"Hello, can I speak to animal pls." The animal is me, Amelia (Animal). Haha. I miss all the good times. I hope Peishi won't get jealous over us again. We're really really good friends, I treasure him like my Lil' bro. *misses all the times we had during attachment. Splashing handrub & all the disturbing. Hope to see you soon, bro.

Thanks small girl for everything.

2009-02-05T10:13:00.005-05:00

My forehead bleed, thanks to Jayden. He threw my hp, the popping steel hit my head. I was traumatised.

I was lying on the bed with my husband, there it goes, my hp smacked my forehead.

Too fast for my husband to react. It hurts so much dat my tears rolled down. I was covering my face, it was fucking painful la. Den my husband wants to take a look at the wound, it was bleeding la. I didn't know it bled.

Now I got a plaster on my forehead, looking like nelly no. 2

*sigh* I looked so ugly right now.

2009-02-05T04:40:00.002-05:00

I've deleted my previous post, I shouldn't sound so angry in my blog. Monday, I needa go down to NUH to sign the agreement & collection of my uniform. Haha, Im gonna start work on 16th Feb. Hopefully Kathy will take back her words, & put me in march orientation instead.

I was dead beat. Went back to sch with my big & lil' guy den drove to SGH. I really hate SGH, we took so long to get to SNB. Carrying our dear baby, walk around like gg on a tour. If only, they can put up signboards where can direct idiots like us. Finally, finally, finally! Got my practicing cert. Been waiting for this card for so long & it took me alot of effort to get dis card. I'll treasure you. I'll have to draw a pair of wings behind the money.*$70 fly away to the SNB*

It's really not easy, being a nurse. Like wat Yelin & I think, once we work, we don't even have time to think bout, the passion we used to have. Singapore is lacking of nurses, 1 nurse needa handle 12 patients. Ang moh country 1 nurse to 6 patients. Now you know why singapore nurses are all suffering from stress. Nursing is a all in one job, yet LOW PAY. If if if, only government are kind enough to increase nurse's salary, I'm sure alot of ppl wil be interested in nursing. So many nurses from India, Phillpines, if they really got the standard, I've got nth to say. But.. Sad to say, they do precharting, everything bout them is lazy. & I really hate dis kinda attitude.

Okay, when we were students, we slack, but the nurses..?! Slack too much. I Needa go to my mum's place now. Today is my dad's bdae. Happy Bdae dad, u're a year older now. I hope you dun have white hairs, & dun call me moron again. Dad, u're vulgar at times.

2009-02-03T06:12:00.002-05:00

Today my son & I really rot at home. We took a long long nap. 1 plus - 4.45pm. Can you believe it? I guess we both were too tired. Jayden's favourite Nemo, is playing umteem times, everyday 3 times a day or even more. It's been 2 weeks, if i watch my HK drama, he'll say :"cartoon.." Den I have to give in to dis lil guy. Anyway, I like Finding Nemo, especially the like octopus with short tentacles, when they scare her, it'll say : " Oh, you guys make me inked." So cute!

Oh yah, I met Sister Penny, she's so nice! She said I'll join on march's orientation. Meaning?? Am I in for the job? *ponders* Sisiter Penny raised her voice with enthusiasm : " ARE YOU READY FOR THE JOB?!" With her hands raised up. Den I was wondering, am I suppose to sound like her too?? I didn't, but I said Yes with confident. & smiled. kaka. In my heart, I was laughing like hell. Cos she's just too cute, like wat Yelin said, Petite & bubbly.

She told me the job scope, department she'll put me in, I'll be joining the March orientation. Dat's why I can't stop thinking if I'm in for the job. My son is learning quite a lot of new words, very adorable. With his chub cheeks & shortfart body. Walking around like a humpty dumpty. I really feel very happy having him in my life.

Ben got some range going on, wow, took fucking long. He told me when I called, his chest is vibrating cos his cell is in his chest pocket. Haha. & he said, he'll come home cocked eye. Too much shooting, kill his eyes. Currently, waiting my big guy to be back, den have dinner together. Oh man, graduation's coming, I've yet to buy my office wear. Dis weekend.. I shall not drag anymore.

I shall go acc my dear baby, if not he'll be bored. Here I come, my love.

2009-02-01T20:56:00.002-05:00

I like my mom's home, the ambiance, the wind, the smell of teak wood. When I play Late Night Alumni's song, I felt so much in heaven. I haven't felt like dis for a long time. Today, I'll be seeing Sister Penny. I'm really nervous.

K.C brother called me on Sat morning, we chatted for awhile, I was quite happy talking to him.. My hp is dead, you know, I don't really contact people cos' I'm quite busy with the little one. I took lots videos of him, & I finally realized I've neglected him all along. He feels lonely.

Dis Lunar New Year is boring, nothing much the same. I miss those days when we were all young, during mid autumn, we'll hang the lanterns along the fence at grandma's place, play water bomb at her big big green garden, play with Whitely (puppy with white fluffy fur), climbing up and down granny's stairs, running from room to room, all the memories at my granny's Semi D, Queenstown.

Now Queenstown has become a ghost town. ;/ Used to be very packed, crowded & lively. Now it's so quiet, My Aunt salon was there, so me & my childhood friend Dariaus will run around, his mum & my mum will take pictures of us holding hands.

Yesterday, I just met him at my aunt's place, like, hey we're all grown up! But I was quite shy to talk, den his mummy said, Amelia is now a mommy, yet so small size. I almost fainted. Jayden is always being carried around. He's always smiling to others. In just love him so much my baby Jayden.

2009-01-29T04:29:00.004-05:00

Okay, dis video I've posted up is bout' our naughty son, being wrapped up like a caterpillar. & being questioned by us. We realised dat, he actually know A is for apple & B is for banana but my dear boy pronounced it as tananana. After dat he got his freedom back.

2009-01-28T20:19:00.006-05:00

Happy 2nd Anniversary Baby!

Yesterdae, I really had fun. It's been a long time since I last sung. Terrible, but after a few songs it sound better. Hmm, baby & hs brother played billiard, I dun know which ball to poke & the table is wide. I'm sucha shortfart, can't imagine me playing dat. I was really really happy, & I love you baby. Time flies so fast, it's been 2 years. I love you more than anything else. C:

2009-01-27T10:35:00.005-05:00

Me & baby. CNY day 2.

At my mumm's place.
I felt so tired after visitng.
My baby Jayden & I.

He said : "Please"

CNY Day 1.

So cheena.

Drinking his milk.

So bored huh, nth to do..

Me & my dearest.

2009-01-22T19:39:00.002-05:00

My Lil' Chubb.

Naughty Jayden in his F1.

Jayden is really messing up the house everyday, & poor me have to tidy up once he's aslp. Right now he's watching Richard Scarry's best mother goose ever! Dat's why I got my free time. Everyday, I've been slacking around like there's nth in life. So boring. But lucky me, I still have my son will keep me occupied.

K.C coming out today, but I can't meet him. Sigh. I got it all wrong, I tot my appointmnr for pedicure & waxing was today, but actually it's tomorrow. Hw silly can I be? FLU BUG IS STILL ALIVE! Poor Jayden still having mucus dripping on & off at times. He's always sucking his thumb. Hw to get rid of this bad habit?

Yday was my FIL's birthday! We took pictures. He's damn shy. Happy 46th Bday daddy. C:

2009-01-21T09:08:00.002-05:00

I'm feeling EMO.

I can kill a tiger right now.

I'm having AV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Omfg, ydae I mentioned bout' AV & today I have it. I didn't know I got such lucky mouth. My happiest moment of today is when Sister Penny from NUH called me, she told me she wants to see me after CNY.

I must thank Yelin. Yeah, hopefully, I'll get dis job at NUH. It's office hours, but it got to do with surgery. At least it's sumthing challenging. C:

2009-01-20T08:47:00.003-05:00

I lost my appetite lately. Maybe I feel kinda frustrated, AV is still not here yet. I hope it won't affect my chinese new year mood. I'm having backache and all. Today stupid lady called me to look for the bitch. Like I'm stuck to her, where ever she is, I must be around? I should have fuck her off, dat bitch is not my bestfriend or wat. I helped her out of pity, dat's it. Never have I wished for anybody like dat.

Infact, I'm starting to feel dat friends are all bout' lies. They cheat you, they backstabbed you, basically, they are trying hard to bring you down in all ways. As much as I know, or friends I have/had just made used & fucked off. Still there are some I'm stil holding on to, cos I stil treasure them. Easy as dat, if you know hw to catch my weakness, I'll forgive you ALL THE TIME. Even though I know you are lying to me.

Call me dumb or watever, I'm just like dat. Hw I wished, sometimes, I can slap myself awake. I'm really pissed off this time. If YOU BITCH, wanna make use of me again, you can try. I'll not be nice to you. Some can just openly backstabbed like nobody's business, like ppl around won't tell me who's the bad one. Sigh. Dis is so disappointing. I may have many friends, but infact in my heart, I only remember a few. The others are just aquaintance. Hi, bye, fuck off.

Ppl who dun know me, might think I'm arrogant, I'm stucked up, I'm so unapproachable cos of my looks, then you are so wrong. Okay, I admit, I choose friends, cos of some things happened be4, I choose my friends very carefully, if I think you are not the real you, I'll rather not make conversation with you. As simple as that.

Last but not least.....

K.C, Shikin, Komesh. I really appreciate the 3 of you. Anyway, will always be in my heart I promise all of you. Even if I'm too busy, didn't call or msg, I'll still miss all of you very much. Especially, my lil' brother, bestfriend, K.C.

2009-01-19T02:37:00.003-05:00

I wanted dis geisha so much.

My worst day ever, never have I have good impression bout KKH since last time.

Out of the blues, Wenbin msg me online, so weird huh. Come to think bout it, it's been so long since I last talked to him. I'm always away when he said hi. Yah la, my friend now is a porfolio DIRECTOR. Really make me wanna puke. ;/ Hw can his face be one?

Today is a sucky day. I'm pissed with a bitch indeed. I shouldn't have help you. Being nice doesn't pay off to be treated nice in return. I'm not going to be nice anymore. FUCKTARD.

Deline & everyone scolded me for being nice to you. >_< Anyway, I'm just so dumb, so I can only blame myself.

Hopefully, Sister Penny will call me soon. Real soon. *Prays*

2009-01-14T09:47:00.002-05:00

My Mother in law read my palm, she said I got short life. Means, I'm gonna die before my husband do. Myhusband's palm linings are so long & obvious. Mine is so. Saddening. But she said I got long fingers, meaning I will have good life. C: My husband added : "No wonder, normally ppl with good life, die early.........."

I've been watching too much HK drama. Catching GEM OF LIFE NOW. I even dreamt dat I'll be one rich lady. With dozens of high heels displaying, umteem bling bling nice clothes hanging in my wardrobe. *Smacks Forehead.*

Basically, a TAI TAI kinda life is very very cool. My life is not dat bad actually so I'm contented with what I have now. C: My wedding anniversary is nearing, yet I haven't got my husband a gift. It falls on day 3 of CNY. Headache. I'm turning in, tmr have 2 interviews. Thanks to T. Arranged 2 interviews at a goal. Hopefully, I'll join Singapore National Eye Centre instead of ASTHETIC.

2009-01-11T10:23:00.002-05:00

In 17 more days, Chinese New Year will be here. I've bought all my new year clothes, but not my hubby yet. He's sucha lazy bum, yet sprained his ankle during basketball match. Sigh, he have to admit dat he's old now. Now my father in law is massaging his ankle for him, I should have just video his facial expression, really funny.

Not I wanna say bad things bout him, he's trying to be funny all the time. When Jayden was happily watching Barney, there it goes, old king cole, & my hubby went into the room, he came out of the with the blanket, rying to act like OLD KING COLE. Really make me laugh my heart out. ;/

26, turning 27 soon yet he's still like a kid to me. When will he grow up..? As days goes by, really hard to make Jayden slp during his bedtime. Really gives me headache. Had diahorea. (pardon me, if the spelling is wrong.) I'm gonna change my layout soon.

2009-01-09T01:11:00.002-05:00

Today, I felt kinda frustrated after I received a mail.But I chose to ignore it, cos it's not like we're not gonna talk to one another anymore. Furthermore, my friend K.C went in army. I feel as though, I lost someone. Dun know when will be the nx time I can see my Best friend. I miss those times, with the both of you. Friends forever.

2009-01-07T09:01:00.002-05:00

debt collector. I am hoping one fine day ur penis/pussy will just rot with fungus. Got all kinds of sexual disease which will lead you to death, didn't ur parents teach you manners? Or are u just plain dumb/cheebye. Going around ppl's blog to scold bitch and all, the pure bitch is you. If I really get to see you one day, I swear I'll let you know what jaw breaker for dissing. What are your brains for? All you think bout is girls opening their legs, why not u just open up ur damn retarded legs & insert a knife to feel the damn sensation. Pea brains, you've got. If you got the guts, meet me up, I swear I'll give you a big time. U're just a peanut to me. Listen up, P.E.A.N.U.T. Scam!

2009-01-04T08:54:00.001-05:00

Everything I wanted to do, u just object.

2008-12-31T09:46:00.002-05:00

I didn't even know you cried on your birthday. Until, u showed me one pic, den it triggers me, I went to all ur love one's blog. I saw the pics, u were crying. I'm so sorry. I'm really really sorry. I dun know what to say to you. I'm just a hurtful friend. It just hurt me seeing you cry.

2008-12-26T19:40:00.004-05:00

Early morning, here I am sitting on my bed typing my entry. I've got another interview on Monday. I'm pondering if I should go? The other time I went for interview, the interviewer is nice. Actually too nice. She wants to put me in Asthetic Clinic, the first thing came to my mind is Beauty. Sigh, isn't it the same for me to work at Sylvia's Secrets.

Actually in me, I want something challenging, but not in Government Sector. Cos I seriously hate the salary they're paying. Monday, BTT at 10am, Interview at 3pm. The timing she scheduled is so not right for me? I asked her, :" Oh yah, I needa make enquiry with you, what kinda job scope will it be?" She told me:" For you, I would like to put you in Asthetic."

Currently listening to the song on Deline's blog. I'm hooked to the song. I was pissed with the one who tagged her cheap. I guessed I know who is it. I really hate haters going to ppl's blog to tag stupid stuffs. But nv have it happen to me be4. It seems like, every single day, Deline & I will call to talk. It's like a habit already. She & her weird dreams.

She's gonna persue her psychology. Good luck! &&& I'll always be ur listening ear if you need me. Dun get urself upset most of the time.

Here, dis part is for Someone Special. Who turned 18 ydae.

Firstly, I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you. It's not because my husband took leave, or ur friends around. I just want you to have happy moments with your love ones. The other day, one of ur love ones called me up, asking me for help. So I said okay. The next moment, I kinda panic. I called K.C, I told him, we'll have to cancel the celebration. K.C was like WHY WTF. K.C called up ur friends & asked what's happening. They said they wanted to give you a surprise, furthermore one of ur friend is leaving SG. Yup, that's bout it.

Do you know it's hard to keep secret from you. You almost dig it out. & I felt really really bad. I'll make up to you one of these day.

I'm needa bathe the small boy now, see ya.

2008-12-24T21:56:00.004-05:00

Beautiful Snowflakes.

Mag ich wünsche den ganzen Ihnen sehr glücklichen frohen Weihnachten mit Ihrer Liebe eine. I want a White Xmas next year.

2008-12-24T01:14:00.000-05:00

PL, faster come back. I wanna talk to you badly.. I'm feeling down. PL.

2008-12-23T20:12:00.004-05:00

I know you won't be angry with us. Cos you'll be happy. On your birthday everything will reveal. After K.C's chalet, after K.C go NS I think we won't be contacting. Unless K.C wants to meet up, I will be there I think. Dat's what I've decided. But definetly I won't forget bout' us. So much of me is you. My heart just feel small and upset. I won't get my love diverted, I will cater to you, Ben. I feel frustrated, so many many many things kept inside me. Who can I cry to?

I'm waiting for this day, dis day to come. Don't you have sumthing to say to me? PL, PL.. I'm counting the days til' u're back. I miss you truck lots.. I need your shoulder to cry on. U'll have to plan for 30th, what we gonna do ok? I know you want to chill out at NYDC drink & smoke without our son around. You said, u've got lots to tell me, I hope u're fine with ur life now. If we were single, things will be different.

We still can meet up every single day, we'll bunk over at each other's place, we'll dress the same, pluck on the earphones & flapping our flops, we'll go tanning, we'll rot at ur place keep eating junk food. We'll go club tgt, PL I still remember we got into a fight cos of some guys at club. Talk bout clubbing, PL do u still remember we went Devil's bar. U brought ZR & the other butch also. Worst day of our lifes, wassup with them? Can't keep their hands to themselves. Both of the same kind.

& I will still hate baby. Ur baby (puppy) so annonying. Kept coming to my legs & licking me like nobody's business. Sorry, still I prefer big dogs. At times, baby is cute. AT TIMES ONLY. So dun bug me, dat u're baby is sooooo cute. I miss Yanti, though she went back to Indonesia already. Her cooking is good, & whenever we want to go club, she'll say nice nice nice.

There's once, we intend to cook at my place. Our cooking sucks. But mine is slightly better den yours. Ur egg like so overcooked and black. Makes me scared. ;/ My bro facial expression was so kuku when he saw the outcome of our cooking.

At Cine, while we were smoking, suddenly, loong saw dis 2 person walking towards us. I was shocked to death, it's ur daddy & mommy la. Summore u're happily smoking. Omg, den we were like:" OMG, PL PL!! Stop smoking now!!!" The worst thing is ur daddy is a Doctor, ur mommy is a nurse. kaka. Den ur daddy said :" huh, smoking.. Ur lungs are turning black. So what time are you 2 going back tonight?" PL was like chasing them away. ;/

I met you through Rachel, we intended to go club. Summore, not long after my broke up with Jansen. The first time we met, we talked as though we know each other for yonks. Den Rach was left alone with Scott. Hmm.. Den ur pingster. Wah lau dunno wat to say. I shall shut my mouth now, though I can't stand some things. Hmm.............. Now u can't read my post, but u will read it on the 28th. Call me when u're back. I wanna listen to ur voice.. Hugs PL tight and misses PL.

2008-12-22T19:57:00.007-05:00

His favourite Pooh bear.

Tears open the wrapper.

See what is it inside.

Mama, bought you sumthing..

Sometimes, I really dun know what I'm thinking. I'm having Av again, the crampy feeling, is really killing me. I've been kinda upset over sumthing, K.C & I dun know if you will be pissed, but we hope you won't. For dis, I've been stressing about. No matter wat, dun be angry with us.

Hmm. I'm a full time mommy now. Damn tiring, looking after the Naughty Jay. If Santa ask if him, "naughty or nice?" I'll shout for him naughty. He got a wooden rocking horse, when he sit on it, he rocked it so hard, made my heart strink. I was scared he'll fall off dat horse.

Ich bin also oben eingezogen mit den Gedanken von Ihnen. Er setzt Zeit fest, damit ich, I don' Abschied nehme; t wünschen Freunde irgendein.

Sigh, AV AV AV. Making me moody. My BTTis on the 29th Dec. Man man man, Next monday. I hope i can make it. & den fuck myself in the car & learn driving. At least huh, I know hw to drive forward & reverse. So not dat bad. giggles.

2008-12-21T08:25:00.002-05:00

Yesterday went O Bar. & I got myself tipsy with just 2 jars of Vodka Ribena. Bad drinker. Later Carlsberg will be accompany me while I Watch my drama. AV is here, fucking hell. I must be glad it didnt came yesterday.

I'm kinda down now. There's sumthing I wanted to do, but I think it's okay now.

I got my new hair colour with highlighted stripes. Cost my husband's $160 to fly away. + clubbing, spend another 200 over. Man. Money money moneyyyyy......

2008-11-30T03:28:00.002-05:00

Vom Tag, den ich Sie, ich kenne, wusste, dass es kein Glück in uns gibt. aber lieben Sie noch Entdeckung it' s-Weise durch. bis heutigen Tag sehe ich noch mein dino' s-Gesicht, das in meinem Traum erscheint. Ich liebe dich.

I'm off now, going out.

2008-11-30T02:37:00.002-05:00

From today onwards, there's no more L'D in my life neither D'J. Hmm, Deline got back with her bf, I hope dis time ur decision is right. Be happy Deline. Guess, tomorrow I won't cry. I know I won't. Cos I will be happy.

K.C is angry, so yeah I apologised. It's up to him to accept my apology. Dis time round, I've gone overboard. Okay, he's the one mentioning D. But it doesn't really matter to me anymore, if u wanna throw it away, smash it, tear it, I won't feel a thing anymore. No more..

I should look forward for IMH posting, & Eve's birthday on Saturday. Cos I will be meeting my girlfriends & it's been a long time since I last met them. Girls, LET'S PARTY. & GET LOW.

Tom Kaulitz & Jayden made me smile today. No more crying. Cos Ami, u're done with it, & nth really matters anymore. So just fucking smile tomorrow. C:

Currently listening to The Corrs "I Never Loved You Anyway."

2008-11-29T09:35:00.002-05:00

I quarrelled with K.C my smoking khaki. Never have I hung up on him before. & I told him, I won't be meeting him to work on Monday. Deline, deline, only you know everything, I hope I'll be fine on Monday & you'll help me right? I'm feeling so fucked up right now. I'm sorry K.C.

2008-11-29T07:49:00.002-05:00

I bought new loots. Sigh, without knowing, I spent $120 in just 2 fucking days. Yesterday, I bought new top, new jeans & new belt. Den today, walked passed face shop. Den bought

new concealer, nail strengthener, nail polish & cheek brush. I forgot to add, I bought Bobbie Brown's "SKI SLOPES" colour palette. See see see, money just gone like dat. Come to think bout' it, it's more den $120.

Hw I wished, money will just fall from the sky..

& I hope K.C said the things earlier on was fake. Stupid L'.D. If you dun treasure D.'J den might as well return it back to me, at least I will treasure it, better off den you? V. disppointed & upset. I felt that everything is just bullshit. When you said u will take care of it well.

2 more days, til' my next posting, which is IMH. A posting which I'm really reluctant to go. I just dun know hw I feel right now. Totally shit. I hope, I have sever short term memory, but infact, it's so hard to forget everything..

Now I know where I stand, I rather K.C not tell me bout' D.'J. Thanks for that.

2008-11-28T11:30:00.001-05:00

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. I'm really sorry L'D.

2008-11-28T09:05:00.002-05:00

I didn't have a good day at work, though' Phyllis Tan talked to me in a nice manner. I'm utterly stupid, watever it is.. I'm just feeling.. d.o.w.n

K.C & I were talking cock after work, I dun even know where the fuck was my heart & soul. I wasn't fully concentrating on him. I didn't realised I slammed the dustbin lid on him, & I apologised in a bad manner. & He wants a public apology. Today, when he told me dat, I felt bad. But still, I really needa smack him with a fish.

I'm not facing the problem bravely, but running away from it. K.C called me C.o.w.a.r.d. But K.C seriously, I dun know hw.

Fucked up man, seriously. Fucked up life. Suddenly, Brackish played on my mind, again & again.. I told K.C I might be gg to IMH on Mon, with Komesh. Den he said, if I'm not meeting him to work, he won't help me with the thing.

Today's joke of the day, K.C & I wenta Cheers to buy drink. Den dis fucking cashier boy, asked me if K.C is my Bf. I really wanna throw the bottle at his damned face. I needa crucify & learn. Kittie, kittie, I feel as though I'm a paperdoll. Burning.. into ashes.

2008-11-25T07:46:00.002-05:00

I'm still wondering what I'm supose to wear on Sat. ;/ Really need to buy more clothes. My wardrobe is full, but the problem is I dunno when to wear the clothes. I'm so gonna buy new clothes. & dress nicely. Forever 21, I'm coming.

Many ppl said, I looked fierce & unapproachable. Sigh. Why is dat so?? Cos of my tattoos? Im harmless, unless you tried to be bitch infront of me. I'm friendly, if you try talking to me. I think so.. ?

I'm doing research bout smoky eye make up. & I wanna try dat make up on Saturday. ;D

2008-11-24T08:37:00.007-05:00

I got my Paris Hilton Bag. I got it dirt cheap.

I miss you, Jayden baby. Sat, is Eve's Birthday. We're gg to Club Nana. Alamak some thai club. I was wondering hw am i gonna dance to the thai music. tionkkk. I can't zouk out man. My husband just dun wanna bring me go, cos he said there's alot of perverts. I'll update some time soon.

2008-11-19T04:23:00.005-05:00

After Eating, I looked like a pregnant lady.

Before dinner.

Random Pic.

Can you see the fucking scar on my rt brow.

I wasn't feeling good lately. I dun know why the fuck I'm always having those headaches, bouncy feeling as though I was floating while walking & blackout scenes for a few secs. I was really praying hard dat I'll not knock out during shift. Dis is the fucking first time I got so irritated & pissed with myself.

I thought of gg to the doctor, cos I think dis time round, I dun feel right. Yes, normally my BP reading is always low, but it didn't hit 90/40 before. Why not someone just use a knife & kill me now. ;/ I looked damn sick in those pics up there. So be it. Dis is the ugly me.

If you dun like me, den dun fucking read my blog la. If you think I'm too vulgar den too bad, cos it's me, me & me.

Fuck some ppl, just wanna act nice infront of me, but actually behaving like a whore behind. Fucktard..

2008-10-31T12:50:00.002-04:00

I'm still awake, waiting for K.c to call, my husband needa collect sumthing from him. Quick, K.c i'm slpy..

Hmm, guess what? Migrain is haunting me again. Totally not in the mood for anything. When I reached home from work, drop dead. I wenta bathed & den was browsing through the pics while lying on my comfortable bed. I couldn't get a nap cos of the headaches & dizziness.

I met a cute patient, named Syahid. Can't judge a book by it's cover. He's heavily tattooed yet he knows alot bout life. he knows Origami. & i asked him to make a dino. Cos i wanna give it to Pikachu (a.k.a Lil' dino).

Thank god, Komesh was okay. *phew

What a great relieve. & i saw an accident right infront of me today. I was freaked out, loss of words. Luckily, the car was infront of us, if not we'll be the one involve in dis accident.

You won't know what's gonna happen tmr. So, treasure your love ones.

2008-10-28T10:16:00.001-04:00

Komesh darling, i hope everything's gonna be alright. I pray for you & Mani. You're more than a friend to me, my dear sister. ;( I'll be there for you. *prays hard*

2008-10-27T09:24:00.004-04:00

Happy Deepavali.

Today, wenta watch the movie, Tropic Thunder. Fucking lame & gross. I love Ben Stiler. He's so funny. Aftermath, went to my mother in law's shop. Ask her to go down & smoke with us. I was fucking tired, i slpt at 5+am & woke up at 10am. Didn't realised i skipped my breakfast & lunch. After the movie, i was damn hungry.

So sweet of my lil' dino, she posted her pics for me, therefore.. these are for you. You look damn cute in black. ;D See you soon ok? hugs & misses.

Lil' Dino, dis is for you.

2008-10-26T13:28:00.002-04:00

I can't get to slp. I'm feeling down. For some reason, i feel dat im not important at all. You don't care bout' me. & u dun even fucking know i've got flu for so many days. Fucktard, all u know is soccer, soccer & soccer. What else is important in ur life?

U're making me so useless. & u left the insecurities hanging. If u dun love me, i rather leave for good. Better off living by myself feeling so lonely. I bet u dun even know dat. I'm just another forgotten bitch. i hate you.

2008-10-26T12:22:00.002-04:00

Yesterday, we wenta night safari. There's this halloween thingy going on. I can't see a single shit without my specs. I was pointing to the animals, telling Jayden "look baby, it's a hippo." But in fact i wasn't sure if the hippo was there.

Okay, we took pics with those halloween party ppl. Dis year, not gg celebrate the halloween's girl bdae. She will not be in sg = no halloween. The whole time, i was carrying Jayden. Now my hands are aching. We didn't bring his stroller cos we know we'll rather hop on the tram den walking. So many ppl, squeezing & i'm so short. The air under those tallies are really bad!

Fucking hell. Tall ppl just dun know hw we shorties suffer. Oh yah, my lil' dino was sick. Wanna know who's my lil' dino? She's pikachu. So many names for her. Ate ice cream when she got fever. Good. I shall see hw she's gonna suffer.

Many ppl hates elephant, i dunno wat's wrong with them? I know elephant poo poo are smelly. But dun ur poo stinks too?!! Elephants are just so cute, they are so intelligent. If only i can bring one home, & have him/her all by myself. U all are gonna be dead jealous cos i can have elephant ride every single day. Whereas, u all have to go to the zoo & pay $12 for a few mins ride. Dun you ever criticise elephants infront of me.

2008-10-23T00:19:00.003-04:00

Yesterday, was the first time, Cupid, PL & i meet up after yonks. I really felt happy. & my PL's tummy is so sharp & big. I got a shock when she lifted up her dress. but of course, she's wearing her leggings. her tummy is x2 bigger den mine when i was preg. Not bad uh PL, we're the same size but u got a bigger baby. ;P

I'm having AV (auntie visit) right now. So i'm very grumphy. due to bad cramps & backache + dizzyness. Fuck, no wonder i was unwell ydae.

Practically, it's raining every day. So boring. Can't go out, cos jayden can't get caught in the rain. If he's at my mum's place, i can't be bothered with the rain & get my backside out of the house! He's sucha pain yet fun loving. He's aslp dat's why i got my free time to post my entry, if not he'll be making hell lots of noise & i'll shut him up with his barney dvd.

Oh yah, i think PL's tummy is too scary, jayden gave her a very weird expression & keep mumbling sumthing. I think he's saying : " mommie's friend, PL. Can u just stop showing me ur big tummy cos i'm really scared. " haha. I told him PL is a monster.

Yah, Jayden is too friendly until he poked Joachim's eye when i was eyeing on shorts which i wanted to buy. dammit. He made Joachim cry. !@#$%^& Den when he sayang Joachim, he cried again. Jayden, Joachim is scared of u now even though u're 4 months younger. Terror. ;/

Jayden is teething, so fucking grumphy, stubborn & hyperactive. he's helping me to lose weight by chasing him around the hse, like playing catching.

Her fucking big tummy.

I seperate their stroller, jayden is a terror.

Jayden sayang him, but not long after Joachim cried. =(

Shikin is doing the ah lian pose.

So funny. kaka.

Dunno why must she give dat ignorant face.

Now angry face la, wat's next?

Finally she smiled.

The other day i went town again, with Pikachu. I think those ppl from india fell in love with her kept looking at her. She's so crappy. damn crappy.

2008-10-21T11:50:00.003-04:00

Everytime, when i got so fucking frustrated, i'll blog what i've gotta say. Why some ppl just like making other ppl's life miserable. Living in denial.

Why can't my friend just be decent & stop lying to me. My heart sank to my feet. But what can i say? Ppl around me are just so fucked up. Cant give me a peace mind & allow me to smile just for a week.

I'm tired of all these shit. If you, my friend is reading dis i hope u are not lying to me. Cos i once trusted you, & things didnt turn out the way i expected. I'm so disappointed. I dun like to see my friend upset, & i hate seeing ppl getting hurt. fuck.

I dun wanna make my blog sound so emo, negative or anything. Anyway, it's been months since i last posted here. & i realised i had neglected my blog for so long.. I said i would post up pics but i din.

Whenever i see my old blog, i felt so diff now. I'm no longer the nightlife girl, no longer a drinker, no longer a girl with many piercings, black nails & of course freedom.

& i miss those days, when i still have my girls with me. My life with PL. I had most memories with my PL. We were really happy.. Slping tgt, bathing tgt, cooking tgt, bitching bout ppl, chilling in town, dressed up the same, kill our time by dancing in the living room, exchange our clothes when we've got nth else to wear, gt into fight tgt.. etc etc.

I've lost all of our pics except for one. My PL & i didnt talk to each other for bout 2 yrs because of something. & now we're back. We're gonna have our very own PL blog. & we'll create a PL folder in friendster to upload our PL pics.

I've met sumone whom i really didnt expect to be close to right now.. Wasn't close to her in sch before. Kinda weird right, but she defintely stands a place in my heart right now. Someone who i'll treasure.

2008-07-20T07:24:00.002-04:00

I will post all the pics next sat. Very busy week. Baby is flying off next sat. Will be back in a month's time. I'll miss him like crazy.

2008-07-10T11:41:00.004-04:00

Ah hah. Hetic week for me. I'm so tired everyday. Every fucking single day. Damned it.

1) Preparations for Jayden's Birthday Function.

2) Oncology, somehow confused me.

3) Long hours of nursing studies.

4) I hate my fucktard lecturer.

5) I'm having my period.

Totally no time for myself & family. Woke up at 5am everyday, reached home practically 7pm EVERYDAY. Baby got BOSS duty to do, so he's not coming home. I'm gonna rot & die without my dear husband. If he's home, at least i can find something to argue with him bout'.

Today, my friends told me I'm acting like one of the patients in IMH. Well, what to do? I'm undergoing stress. U know what stress is??

I kept drawing veins on Komesh's & Ana's hand (too much nursing studies makes a nurse go kuku) & i drew shit on their books too. They kept erasing what i drew. Hah. They don't even appreciate my drawing! *Roll eyes*

Yeah la, i was too bored til' i asked ANA & AYU to teach me melayu. Aku faham melayu, but i can't speak. Dat's the problem. So from the effect on Monday, they are gonna speak malay. & i'll try & speak to them malay too. *MOFO*

I needa buy a new bikini & sundress. So i can wear it on Sat, my dear son's FIRST BIRTHDAY. Jayden walks steadily now. From kitchen to my room, then crawl to the kitchen & walk back to my room again. He can crawl damn fast ok. LIKE A LIZARD. With a blink & he's gone.

U know what, i'm so gonna move out of this hse soon. I'm okay with my mother in law. But not my SIL (I shall not name it here, incase SIL reads my blog). Anyway, nth to be suprise bout' dat particular person always view me & my husband's friendster.

I HATE YOU, sometimes u wanna make me slap ur face. BUT I'M CONTROLLING. If u were not someone of mine, i would have, & a tight one for you. I can't stand bootlicker & u're so damn jealousy. All i can say is, u can't bring me down cos i have my husband standing right behind me supporting me. My husband always remind me :"A few more months baby, we can move out. Then u'll be happy cos it's our own home." I'm waiting................................

I'll update when i'm free. & with pics of Jay's bday. I'm turning in soon. Good night!

2008-06-30T05:03:00.006-04:00

Aloha, just forget bout my previous blog. it's in my junk list now. Now it's all bout dis.

Okay, I had so much yesterday. My husband, Jayden & I dropped dead when we reached hm. Early in the morning, we bathed & fucked out of the house. Went to Ghim moh for breakfast, i tell you what. I love vegetarian mee hoon, since young. Last week, i had dat also.

Baby turned to me, "DON'T TELL ME EVERY WEEKEND WE WILL HAVE BREAKFAST AT GHIM MOH!" Dat's right! I was just bout to say dat to him. So smart. I gave him dat smile.

After breakfast, we went to Concourse, wanna get Jayden some fancy ballons & decorations for his birthday party. (Dat damned Caron told me Concourse had lotsa cheap party stuffs)

When we got there, security walked towards us, "hello, where are you all heading to? Shopping Mall?" I nodded my head, "Yes." & he replied, "I'm so sorry, the shopping mall is closed for RENOVATION."

Then, my husband gave me dat disappointed look, i'm like.. my oh my. I'd upset my husband. THANKS CARON.

Aftermath, we went to Bugis, to the place where all the party shops dispersed to.. All the stuffs looked so, fugly & the price is no difference from others. Caron claimed dat it was cheap, wholesaler.

Much disappointment, Baby decided to bring us for a swim. & i have to expose my fats. Jayden is a brave boy now, splashed the water at us, walked in the pool & even tried to be a smart aleck, crawl in the pool. I was thinking, what exactly he wants? Coincidentally, we bumped into Jay's babysitter & family.

They love him, i can see dat. & Jayden loves them too. I must say, she's really good. 1hr plus of playing under the sun, time to bathe & go home! But there's a problem, Jayden still wants to play. Even when we wave goodbye to him, he just ignored us continued playing in the pool. He so cute. He might not be cute to you but to me. Cos he's my son!

Bathed, changed. Fed Jayden milk & he fell aslp(snooring summore)

Baby received a call frm Jr, we have to rushed down to Steve's daughter first month. I was dead beat. Talked cocked with his friends. Jayden was damn quiet initially, after that he became a monster. He played with Jr & his wife. Jr claims dat Jay is v strong. I agree, he'll smack ur face if he dislike you. You can't mess with him, just putting ur finger into his mouth & u'll get red & swollen finger in return.

Here are some pictures taken ydae..

Baby gave him an apple & happily munching.

I'm trying to toilet train him, he's doing well.