My say.
Sunday, November 30
Vom Tag, den ich Sie, ich kenne, wusste, dass es kein Glück in uns gibt. aber lieben Sie noch Entdeckung it' s-Weise durch. bis heutigen Tag sehe ich noch mein dino' s-Gesicht, das in meinem Traum erscheint. Ich liebe dich.
I'm off now, going out.
From today onwards, there's no more L'D in my life neither D'J. Hmm, Deline got back with her bf, I hope dis time ur decision is right. Be happy Deline. Guess, tomorrow I won't cry. I know I won't. Cos I will be happy.
K.C is angry, so yeah I apologised. It's up to him to accept my apology. Dis time round, I've gone overboard. Okay, he's the one mentioning D. But it doesn't really matter to me anymore, if u wanna throw it away, smash it, tear it, I won't feel a thing anymore. No more..
I should look forward for IMH posting, & Eve's birthday on Saturday. Cos I will be meeting my girlfriends & it's been a long time since I last met them. Girls, LET'S PARTY. & GET LOW.
Tom Kaulitz & Jayden made me smile today. No more crying. Cos Ami, u're done with it, & nth really matters anymore. So just fucking smile tomorrow. C:
Currently listening to The Corrs "I Never Loved You Anyway."
Saturday, November 29
I quarrelled with K.C my smoking khaki. Never have I hung up on him before. & I told him, I won't be meeting him to work on Monday. Deline, deline, only you know everything, I hope I'll be fine on Monday & you'll help me right? I'm feeling so fucked up right now. I'm sorry K.C.
I bought new loots. Sigh, without knowing, I spent $120 in just 2 fucking days. Yesterday, I bought new top, new jeans & new belt. Den today, walked passed face shop. Den bought
new concealer, nail strengthener, nail polish & cheek brush. I forgot to add, I bought Bobbie Brown's "SKI SLOPES" colour palette. See see see, money just gone like dat. Come to think bout' it, it's more den $120.
Hw I wished, money will just fall from the sky..
& I hope K.C said the things earlier on was fake. Stupid L'.D. If you dun treasure D.'J den might as well return it back to me, at least I will treasure it, better off den you? V. disppointed & upset. I felt that everything is just bullshit. When you said u will take care of it well.
2 more days, til' my next posting, which is IMH. A posting which I'm really reluctant to go. I just dun know hw I feel right now. Totally shit. I hope, I have sever short term memory, but infact, it's so hard to forget everything..
Now I know where I stand, I rather K.C not tell me bout' D.'J. Thanks for that.
Friday, November 28
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. I'm really sorry L'D.
I didn't have a good day at work, though' Phyllis Tan talked to me in a nice manner. I'm utterly stupid, watever it is.. I'm just feeling.. d.o.w.n
K.C & I were talking cock after work, I dun even know where the fuck was my heart & soul. I wasn't fully concentrating on him. I didn't realised I slammed the dustbin lid on him, & I apologised in a bad manner. & He wants a public apology. Today, when he told me dat, I felt bad. But still, I really needa smack him with a fish.
I'm not facing the problem bravely, but running away from it. K.C called me C.o.w.a.r.d. But K.C seriously, I dun know hw.
Fucked up man, seriously. Fucked up life. Suddenly, Brackish played on my mind, again & again.. I told K.C I might be gg to IMH on Mon, with Komesh. Den he said, if I'm not meeting him to work, he won't help me with the thing.
Today's joke of the day, K.C & I wenta Cheers to buy drink. Den dis fucking cashier boy, asked me if K.C is my Bf. I really wanna throw the bottle at his damned face. I needa crucify & learn. Kittie, kittie, I feel as though I'm a paperdoll. Burning.. into ashes.
Tuesday, November 25
I'm still wondering what I'm supose to wear on Sat. ;/ Really need to buy more clothes. My wardrobe is full, but the problem is I dunno when to wear the clothes. I'm so gonna buy new clothes. & dress nicely. Forever 21, I'm coming.
Many ppl said, I looked fierce & unapproachable. Sigh. Why is dat so?? Cos of my tattoos? Im harmless, unless you tried to be bitch infront of me. I'm friendly, if you try talking to me. I think so.. ?
I'm doing research bout smoky eye make up. & I wanna try dat make up on Saturday. ;D
Monday, November 24
I got my Paris Hilton Bag. I got it dirt cheap.
Wednesday, November 19
After Eating, I looked like a pregnant lady.
Before dinner.
Random Pic.
Can you see the fucking scar on my rt brow.
I wasn't feeling good lately. I dun know why the fuck I'm always having those headaches, bouncy feeling as though I was floating while walking & blackout scenes for a few secs. I was really praying hard dat I'll not knock out during shift. Dis is the fucking first time I got so irritated & pissed with myself.
I thought of gg to the doctor, cos I think dis time round, I dun feel right. Yes, normally my BP reading is always low, but it didn't hit 90/40 before. Why not someone just use a knife & kill me now. ;/ I looked damn sick in those pics up there. So be it. Dis is the ugly me.
If you dun like me, den dun fucking read my blog la. If you think I'm too vulgar den too bad, cos it's me, me & me.
Fuck some ppl, just wanna act nice infront of me, but actually behaving like a whore behind. Fucktard..
I got my Paris Hilton Bag. I got it dirt cheap.
I miss you, Jayden baby. Sat, is Eve's Birthday. We're gg to Club Nana. Alamak some thai club. I was wondering hw am i gonna dance to the thai music. tionkkk. I can't zouk out man. My husband just dun wanna bring me go, cos he said there's alot of perverts. I'll update some time soon.
After Eating, I looked like a pregnant lady.
Before dinner.
Random Pic.
Can you see the fucking scar on my rt brow. 
