My say.
Wednesday, December 31
I didn't even know you cried on your birthday. Until, u showed me one pic, den it triggers me, I went to all ur love one's blog. I saw the pics, u were crying. I'm so sorry. I'm really really sorry. I dun know what to say to you. I'm just a hurtful friend. It just hurt me seeing you cry.
Friday, December 26
Early morning, here I am sitting on my bed typing my entry. I've got another interview on Monday. I'm pondering if I should go? The other time I went for interview, the interviewer is nice. Actually too nice. She wants to put me in Asthetic Clinic, the first thing came to my mind is Beauty. Sigh, isn't it the same for me to work at Sylvia's Secrets.
Actually in me, I want something challenging, but not in Government Sector. Cos I seriously hate the salary they're paying. Monday, BTT at 10am, Interview at 3pm. The timing she scheduled is so not right for me? I asked her, :" Oh yah, I needa make enquiry with you, what kinda job scope will it be?" She told me:" For you, I would like to put you in Asthetic."
Currently listening to the song on Deline's blog. I'm hooked to the song. I was pissed with the one who tagged her cheap. I guessed I know who is it. I really hate haters going to ppl's blog to tag stupid stuffs. But nv have it happen to me be4. It seems like, every single day, Deline & I will call to talk. It's like a habit already. She & her weird dreams.
She's gonna persue her psychology. Good luck! &&& I'll always be ur listening ear if you need me. Dun get urself upset most of the time.
Here, dis part is for Someone Special. Who turned 18 ydae.
Firstly, I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you. It's not because my husband took leave, or ur friends around. I just want you to have happy moments with your love ones. The other day, one of ur love ones called me up, asking me for help. So I said okay. The next moment, I kinda panic. I called K.C, I told him, we'll have to cancel the celebration. K.C was like WHY WTF. K.C called up ur friends & asked what's happening. They said they wanted to give you a surprise, furthermore one of ur friend is leaving SG. Yup, that's bout it.
Do you know it's hard to keep secret from you. You almost dig it out. & I felt really really bad. I'll make up to you one of these day.
I'm needa bathe the small boy now, see ya.
Wednesday, December 24
Beautiful Snowflakes.
Mag ich wünsche den ganzen Ihnen sehr glücklichen frohen Weihnachten mit Ihrer Liebe eine. I want a White Xmas next year.
PL, faster come back. I wanna talk to you badly.. I'm feeling down. PL.
Tuesday, December 23
I know you won't be angry with us. Cos you'll be happy. On your birthday everything will reveal. After K.C's chalet, after K.C go NS I think we won't be contacting. Unless K.C wants to meet up, I will be there I think. Dat's what I've decided. But definetly I won't forget bout' us. So much of me is you. My heart just feel small and upset. I won't get my love diverted, I will cater to you, Ben. I feel frustrated, so many many many things kept inside me. Who can I cry to?
I'm waiting for this day, dis day to come. Don't you have sumthing to say to me? PL, PL.. I'm counting the days til' u're back. I miss you truck lots.. I need your shoulder to cry on. U'll have to plan for 30th, what we gonna do ok? I know you want to chill out at NYDC drink & smoke without our son around. You said, u've got lots to tell me, I hope u're fine with ur life now. If we were single, things will be different.
We still can meet up every single day, we'll bunk over at each other's place, we'll dress the same, pluck on the earphones & flapping our flops, we'll go tanning, we'll rot at ur place keep eating junk food. We'll go club tgt, PL I still remember we got into a fight cos of some guys at club. Talk bout clubbing, PL do u still remember we went Devil's bar. U brought ZR & the other butch also. Worst day of our lifes, wassup with them? Can't keep their hands to themselves. Both of the same kind.
& I will still hate baby. Ur baby (puppy) so annonying. Kept coming to my legs & licking me like nobody's business. Sorry, still I prefer big dogs. At times, baby is cute. AT TIMES ONLY. So dun bug me, dat u're baby is sooooo cute. I miss Yanti, though she went back to Indonesia already. Her cooking is good, & whenever we want to go club, she'll say nice nice nice.
There's once, we intend to cook at my place. Our cooking sucks. But mine is slightly better den yours. Ur egg like so overcooked and black. Makes me scared. ;/ My bro facial expression was so kuku when he saw the outcome of our cooking.
At Cine, while we were smoking, suddenly, loong saw dis 2 person walking towards us. I was shocked to death, it's ur daddy & mommy la. Summore u're happily smoking. Omg, den we were like:" OMG, PL PL!! Stop smoking now!!!" The worst thing is ur daddy is a Doctor, ur mommy is a nurse. kaka. Den ur daddy said :" huh, smoking.. Ur lungs are turning black. So what time are you 2 going back tonight?" PL was like chasing them away. ;/
I met you through Rachel, we intended to go club. Summore, not long after my broke up with Jansen. The first time we met, we talked as though we know each other for yonks. Den Rach was left alone with Scott. Hmm.. Den ur pingster. Wah lau dunno wat to say. I shall shut my mouth now, though I can't stand some things. Hmm.............. Now u can't read my post, but u will read it on the 28th. Call me when u're back. I wanna listen to ur voice.. Hugs PL tight and misses PL.
Monday, December 22
His favourite Pooh bear.
Tears open the wrapper.
See what is it inside.
Mama, bought you sumthing..
Sometimes, I really dun know what I'm thinking. I'm having Av again, the crampy feeling, is really killing me. I've been kinda upset over sumthing, K.C & I dun know if you will be pissed, but we hope you won't. For dis, I've been stressing about. No matter wat, dun be angry with us.
Hmm. I'm a full time mommy now. Damn tiring, looking after the Naughty Jay. If Santa ask if him, "naughty or nice?" I'll shout for him naughty. He got a wooden rocking horse, when he sit on it, he rocked it so hard, made my heart strink. I was scared he'll fall off dat horse.
Ich bin also oben eingezogen mit den Gedanken von Ihnen. Er setzt Zeit fest, damit ich, I don' Abschied nehme; t wünschen Freunde irgendein.
Sigh, AV AV AV. Making me moody. My BTTis on the 29th Dec. Man man man, Next monday. I hope i can make it. & den fuck myself in the car & learn driving. At least huh, I know hw to drive forward & reverse. So not dat bad. giggles.
Sunday, December 21
Yesterday went O Bar. & I got myself tipsy with just 2 jars of Vodka Ribena. Bad drinker. Later Carlsberg will be accompany me while I Watch my drama. AV is here, fucking hell. I must be glad it didnt came yesterday.
I'm kinda down now. There's sumthing I wanted to do, but I think it's okay now.
I got my new hair colour with highlighted stripes. Cost my husband's $160 to fly away. + clubbing, spend another 200 over. Man. Money money moneyyyyy......
Beautiful Snowflakes.
His favourite Pooh bear.
Tears open the wrapper.
See what is it inside.
Mama, bought you sumthing..
